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Wednesday, January 9, 2008
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Just read Pittu's blog...She somehow gave me advice in my current situation...
but then again..It is hard to let go...
I know what is good for me..and you...I can tell that you want to give her a chance..but you are afraid I would get hurt..or is it? I am never good at guessing your thoughts...you do it the best... you say the right things at the right time..do the right things at the exact moment I am thinking about it...But somehow...I can never do the same....
Nobody said it would be easy...I have to let go...I will.......do I have to.....? I HAVE to...
Besides..you and me...we would see each other again...or not
I took your advice that you told me tat day Pittu...I let him choose...All I did was stand by the sidelines and watch...
And Daddy asked me an important question today..that left me stunned....
Scenario: Daddy was trying to convince me to watch a movie...but I did not want to because I had to wait for another person to arrive
Daddy: so who is more important?? your friends or him??
I could not answer him...To me both are equally important....
I am very confused right now....
I do not know what to do...about him...about school....about life
Life...it just feels so empty without Susan....I am soo used to having her around and making up stupid stories and laughing at our stupidity....
Life would be so much more bearable with all my sisters here...I just feel so alone right now....
I go to school and I feel like I have no friends...I cannot make fun of the teacher like what I used to do with the rest of my sisters...
All the students there are such nerds...they keep quiet ALL the time...
I need something!!!
I just do not know what it is............
4:09 AM
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